cuap cuap 10 : memorizing memory

Bercuap-cuap 10 : Memorizing memory

When I try to remembering, I realize there’s so many moment that….. uhm, what should I said bout that?

I always smile when I remember how my friend and his wife taking care on me. When I was sick, they even sleep beside me just for making sure that Im okay and nothing bad happen to me. I remember how they worring me when I was delirious from fever. How they care on me, one thing that I cant forget on my life

I remember when my friend runned to my house in the midnight bcoz of my screaming.a thief had trying to enter my house when I was alone.thing that made me scary and panic till I scream so loudly to get help. I call his name and anyone to help then he and someone else infront my house came. When I saw him, I put off knife from my hand and spontaneously huged him and cried so loud. One funny thing is how I trully hug him so tight till didnt realize that he half naked. After several day my friend said,"sa bingung waktu ko teriak malam itu. Takut klo ada apa2. Tp sa ketawa mati ini klo ingat kejadian malam itu. Sa panik ini sampe tra pake baju, baru ko langsung maen polo(peluk) sa bikin sa sama bapa rafael salah tingkah. Ii, malu ya polo2 orang pu pace" I just feel so shame if remember thing happen in that night. One sided I bcome trauma on darkness but one sided it always make us, me,my friend and his wife laugh when we remember it.

When I remember thing happen 1 year ago, I know I feel so guilty. One thing that I didnt realize before, is his existance. It was undeniable that someone who really help me reach Dewi Anjani, summit of mount Rinjani is him. He pushed me, nope he trully pull me till I want to walk and walk again step by step. We fought along tracking but he never take off his hand from my hand, holding so tight to make sure I can walk without falling down. We always debated on anything but he still holding my hand tightly till peak of mount Rinjani we reached. One things I regret is the existance of someone else. Someone else who stir my head and made me think that he was the good one. But I was wrong. My mistake that made me forgeting him who trully help me reach summit of Rinjani. I try to remember that moment again. Moment that so contradictive bout me and him. We fought, we debated but he always supported me. He motivated me and he made me learn bout something. The true existance of friend is not when we are in happiness, but when we really going to fallin down, they are beside us, giving their hand and make us believe that nothing in life we cant through. Thats one thing I learn from my friend. Someday if I meet him, I want to say this. Say that I was so gratefull to met him and to his kindness help me reach one of my highest accomplishment of my life

saturday,september6th2014

I always shy, when I remember when my friend kneeling on me. actually, he did that just to help me wore sandal he bought at store. but, sometimes, for a girl, little thing could make another meant. I know that a wrong meant. But for while, even it’s just ur friends, boy treat can make a girl feel truly like a girl *exexe.

Listening a song can bring anyone to a past, to a moment that has more meaning than other. For me,  When I listening song from Jrock ‘Ceria’, I always remember my brother and many moment we spent at collage.  When I listen it, I know, that I truly miss my brother. I miss his shrill voice, his voice which untune the ears. He sang,”hari ini kundendangkan, lagu yang ingin kunyanyikaaan… terkenang semua kenangan yang tlah ku alami. Ingin ku buka lebar baru untuk meneruskan hidupku. Tak mau lagi kesedihan selimuti diriku. “. And I remember how he sang it, with flat tone that always make me laugh. Laugh so load till I forget my sadness. Yes, when I felt so bad, when I felt so down, he always cheer me up with this song. Song which with his voice always made me smile, and made my mood bcome much much better. My brother is my best brother. He always beside me when I need help. He had many way. I know, He’s my best brother I ever had in this world.

There’s so many meaningful moment we had when  we try to remember it. One thing that we didn’t realize is we almost leave them behind. We had many time to spend moment with people we love, but we throw it away. We were too busy and forgot with them who always there, beside us. Until oneday, we realize they ‘re gone. We loss them when we realize how meaningful they’re on our life. My friend said,”no regret life, bro!” but, will we?

“when u only need the light when its burning low

Only miss the sun when start to snow

Only know u love her when u let her go

Only u’ve been high when u feeling low

Only hate the road when u missing home

Only know u love her when u let her go

And u let her go”

(The Passanger – Let Her Go)